Sunday, May 24, 2009

Induction Time

Wow.  I can't believe that tomorrow is actually the day that I am finally going to give birth to another baby boy!!  I have been waiting for this day for a long time now.  Well, actually 9 months to be exact.  

My thoughts and feelings are quite overwhelmed.  I am not sure how to feel.  I am excited to meet Brady.  I am relieved that this day has finally come.  I am curious to see what he looks like.  I am nervous about being induced.  I am in complete ahhhh that I have a baby in my belly that I am going to welcome into this world.  A true miracle.

However, I do have to admit a little something.   As much as I have been waiting for this day to come, the scheduled induction has put a damper on the situation.  I have been waiting for months for this time to come.  With every day that passes there is a sense of anticipation and excitement that comes with not knowing when or how labor is going to begin.  All that anticipation has been stripped.  I am so excited to finally be relieved of the pain and discomfort of being pregnant and overjoyed to finally get to meet little Brady, but yet my feelings lack that element of surprise.  Now I understand how some mothers who have cesarians sometimes feel robbed of the experience to give birth.  It shatters one's expectations.  I try not to have expectations for fear of falling short of them.  I am trying to allow this situation to not be any different.  

With that being said, I am just going to concentrate on getting ready to welcome a baby boy into this big world that is so anxiously awaiting him.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

Cleverness has never been my forte!

First of all is that how you spell FORTE?  I am thinking there might be an accent over the "e" or something.  But hopefully you get the gist!

I just want to take a moment to reflect my thoughts upon a new scrapbook class that I am taking online.  With much thanks to my cousin Stacey for introducing me to online scrapbooking classes and the complete wittiness of Cathy Zielske, I am officially in LOVE (with all three for that matter: Stacey, and Cathy Zielske).  

I have decided to take a class called, "Everyone Can Write a Little" taught by the one and only, Cathy Zielske.  The idea is to capture everyday status updates via Facebook or Twitter and ultimately create a diary of posts.  I am super excited for the task.  

After watching Cathy's welcome video I am completely inspired to uncover my own inner cleverness and put it in writing, something I have never been good at, but am currently trying to work on.

With that being said, if you get a chance to read my "status updates," please let me know if they are clever or just plain boring, (ie.... I am eating toast!!)

My actual goal is to capture this current time in my life revolving around being pregnant and having a baby.  I invite you to join me on this journey and hopefully enjoy my "status updates".

Monday, May 11, 2009

Challenge Update

Hey Stace!  

I found this sketch:

And applied it here:

Thought you'd appreciate!!  

Thursday, May 7, 2009

For what it's worth...

My doctor's visit this morning revealed that I am 2 cm dilated.  Does that really mean anything?  Only a little...  It means that my body IS preparing to have this baby, but WHEN is the question.  It could technically be here tomorrow or not for another couple weeks.  Most likely baby Brady will be here some time in between.  

I am taking the time right not to not just let you know about my baby status but to vent a little about life.  Life has been treating me very well lately and I am extremely fortunate for that.  However, many things around me have been causing some stress.  My Facebook status update read recently:  

"Even sliding down a rainbow, you can manage to get a splinter in your butt"  

Isn't that true??  

For the limited few that actually do read my blog, I appreciate your interest and I will continue to write for you.  However, my main purpose is for my own expression of feelings, sort of a diary, as you will.  I enjoy looking back among my blogs and reading about things in the past.  I have recently been using my blog entries at journal entries for my scrapbooking.  It seems to be working really well.  For example, if I am scrapbooking an event that happened a year ago, my thoughts regarding that event might not be current.  However, I may have blogged that event when it happened and VOILA I have a journal entry that is full of emotion and exact feelings.  

Well, speaking of which, I better get back to my scrapbooking.  Stacey put up a challenge that has me inspired to create, create, create!!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Challenge Entry #1

I am just sitting here with a smile on my face realizing that I am a big fat nerd.  I am currently scrapbooking with my cousin, who happens to be 184 miles away in Soledad.  We are creating pages, photographing them and sharing them online.  What a truly amazing family members we are.  I am lucky to have her as a cousin and even luckier to have her as a friend!!  

Here is my first two-page spread of the day: 

Scrapbook Challenge

Cousin Stacey was supposed to visit us today but poor little Jane is sick.  That leaves us both confined to the walls of our own homes.  So, Stacey proposed a "Scrapbook Challenge" for today to motivate our inner scrapbooking desires.  (Ok, Stacey's and my scrapbooking desires aren't exactly inner desires, we do manage to express them quite outwardly, but you catch my drift...)

Her challenge is to pick a recent favorite page, photograph it and share it with each other, hopefully leading to an inspiration for us to recreate with our own pictures.  

I chose two pages because I couldn't decide.  Here they are:  

A friendly BBQ:
And an all about Carson page:   
If you would like to join the challenge, please visit Cousin Stacey's Blog at:

Happy Scrapping!!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Not the FIRST and surely not the LAST!

Yesterday about 4 o'clock, Steve and I were making our way upstairs to get ready to take Carson to see some bunnies at a friends house.  Carson ran upstairs and dove into the dog bed which happens to be a chair in our room.  He over shot the chair and landed his head directly into the corner of the armoire.  (See that pointed piece of molding that sticks out on the armoire in the picture below?? Yeah, that is what he hit)  Steve saw the whole thing from the top of the stairs.  I heard him say, "That's gonna hurt."  I came running to find Carson's head gushing blood everywhere.  (Ok, so I may be exaggerating a tad on the amount of blood, but to a mom, it seemed like a lot!)

With all the blood we couldn't tell how big or deep the gash was.  I had our neighbor, Michelle, come over for a second opinion.  I then called another neighbor, Dave, who happens to be a PA in the ER at the local Clovis Hospital.  He was working and wasn't home.  Michelle in turn calls yet another neighbor who happens to be a nurse in the ER at the Fresno Hospital.  Janet came right over and declared that he did indeed need staples.  My heart sunk. 

We called Dave at work in the ER at Clovis Community.  He said that they were really backed up but he would be willing to meet us in the parking lot to put in some staples without numbing ointment.  My tears started falling at this point.  However, this would make for a great story, I wanted other options. 

The next suggestion was to glue it.  Janet ran home to see if she had any derma-bond but didn't have any on hand.  

Clovis ER was backed up so we headed to St. Agnes in Fresno.   There, we waited a short while before being seen.  Once into the Intake Room, we waited some more.  While we waited Carson played patiently. 

Side note... Earlier in the day, Carson got his finger caught in a step stool that caused some serious bleeding to his finger.  

Back at the hospital while Carson was playing, we started to notice blood.  Blood everywhere.  All over the white sheet on the bed, on the floor, on Steve.  Thinking his head was gushing again, we were wrong.  It was his finger, of all things.  We were seriously a disaster hoping that the hospital wasn't going to call CPS!!

Not long after we stopped the bleeding from his finger, his head DID start to bleed again as well, with blood pouring off of his forehead.  What a MESS!!!  
Carson remained calm and unaffected by the blood.  The nurse came to apply numbing ointment to the wound and a tech came to clean his head of all the blood.  Carson was then given TWO staples in the top of his head.   He cried for a brief second and was fine.  

After a few hours, we were released from the hospital and took Carson to see the bunnies as promised.  He is acting and playing normal.  I pretty sure he is going to be fine.  

Carson is two and this was his second trip to the emergency room.  I have a feeling that it won't be the last!

Friday, May 1, 2009

I Hate Being Pregnant

This is just a blog to myself as a reminder incase I ever think about becoming pregnant again.  I hate being pregnant.  I am miserable and uncomfortable.  It hurts and I just want to cry!!!  I am tired and ready for this baby to come now!!!!