Saturday, August 29, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Here's how it all went down....
- 3 years ago - I told Gabriel (our Brazilian exchange student) and David (French exchange student) that when they turned 21, they could come to the US and we would take them to Las Vegas.
- 6 months ago - I received a message from David letting me know that he and his friend Thomas were going to be visiting us this summer and wanted to go to Las Vegas - I said sure... of course!!
- 3 months ago - David confirmed his trip to Fresno and wanted to make plans for Vegas - I thought hmmmmm, how am I going to make this work?
- 1 month ago - I thought, there is NO way I can go to Vegas, I just had a baby. So I decided to just send Steve with the boys.... and Suz!
- 2 weeks ago - I thought, I want to go!! So, I booked a $64 on-way flight to Vegas!
Steve fired up the party-mobile (aka: my GMC Denali) and drove David, Thomas AND Suzanne to Las Vegas. They met up with Jon and Amy Pellanda. I flew in on Saturday night and drove back with the party on Sunday! We stayed at the not so glamourous Bally's but it was comped so there was NO complaining on my part (and the rooms were actually nice!!)Side note: My flight was scheduled to leave on Saturday at 7:30 pm and arrive in Las Vegas at 8:43 pm. The unheard of thing is that my flight left at 7:15 pm (because all passengers were on board) and arrived in Vegas at 8:10 pm!! Here's a shout out to America West for the amazing flight!!
Here is MY cliff note version of MY Vegas trip:
- Saturday: Arrived in Vegas ready to go! Cab to Bally's where I met up with Steve, Suz and the French Boys.
- Cab to Palms Casino for a night at the Playboy Club (won $200 playing blackjack at a $25 table)
- Sunday: 3 am breakfast at America in New York New York
- Gambling and Lunch at Bally's (Lost my $200 and then some playing Craps)
- 6 pm drive back to Fresno (aka: laugh so hard in the car that your cheeks still hurt)
And the only things I came away with from the weekend were:
- Some Great Memories
- Fantastic Photos with some hot French Boys
- and how to say "I am a fucking pineapple" in French
"jes suis un putain d'anana"
David and Thomas showing off their American Smiles
Thursday, August 6, 2009
We have been on the go quite a bit lately but today I got to enjoy a day at home. I even managed to give both my boys baths. Those of you who know me, realize that is a big accomplishment for me. I also enjoyed a little photo session of my two cutie patooties!! Thought you might enjoy them too.
Carson is modeling a blue bath towel garnished with a puppy ribbon while Brady is sporting a yellow bath towel featuring a ribbon with darling transportation vehicles and airplane embellishments. Both are Ginger Delton originals.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I guess I better get to cleaning and give that kid a dust rag!
Carson has also been the kid that is always thinking one step ahead of you. There is NO outsmarting him. If you tell him that he can't ride in your car because you don't have a carseat, he will reply with, "Get my carseat out of mommy's car and put it in your car."
So today, Carson was sitting on the counter helping Suzanne make toast (he did let her come over afterall). He wanted her to sit on the counter with him. She scooted her butt up on the counter and then told Carson that she couldn't sit there because it was sticky and climbed down. Carson said, "Then just wipe it!" Like DUH!! So, as I was wiping the counter, Carson proceeded to tell Suzanne, "Mommy is wiping the counter for you!"
Last night at dinner I gave him a red fork with a blue knife. Heaven forbid that I don't give him matching utencils. He demaned I give him a red knife to match his red fork. So, just for the record, Carson prefers matching utencils!!
That kid is way ahead of his game!! Keeping me on my toes at all times!
Having a second child has been rewarding, yet very challenging at the same time. When Carson was born, Steve and I were in complete awe with the miracle of having new baby. Every moment was a surreal experience. We anticipated every coo, every smile, and every step as I read daily from "What to Expect the First Year."
With Carson, I could tell you how old he was down to the hour or even second. (6 weeks, 2 days and 3 hours, 17 minutes and 37 seconds) In comparison, I have no idea how old Brady is. I have to go to my trusty Blackberry calendar and count the weeks on a regular basis.
The second time around, I feel that it is so much more fun, (a lot more work, but definitely more fun). I tend to enjoy each moment more with a more relaxed attitude. I am not so wrapped up in the thoughts of, "Is this normal?" or "What do I do?"
There are many times that I feel completely consumed by the experience. I have frequent panic attacks and shutter with anxiety. But that doesn't change the love and compassion I feel for my wonderful children.
The biggest struggle is managing our household. I really had no idea that having two children would be this difficult. There are many moments when both children are screaming, needing to be fed, or just having a meltdown and all I want to do is crawl in a hole and scream as well. There are times that I don't think I am going to make it. I assumed going into this that it couldn't be all that bad. If it was, why do so many moms do it? Nobody told me the truth of how difficult it really is. There were (and still are) days that I felt like the worst parent because I didn't think I could do it. I must be doing something wrong because there is no possible way that parenting just two children could be this challenging (some mothers have 3, 4, 5, 6 and in some cases even more). As I talk to mothers about this, I am learning that most mother's feel the way I do. I am just disappointed that nobody chose to tell me that it was going to be this hard. I think moms want others to think that they are capable and that they have it all together. I personally have NO shame and am here to tell you that it is super super difficult. It's not that I would changed my decision to have another child, I just would have liked to have been more prepared as to how difficult it was going to be so I would have avoided the feelings of being an incompetent mother.
With each day that passes, somehow I manage to take one moment at a time and make it through, sometimes leaving the house a mess and my physical appearance less than desirable, but I make it through.
An example of my inability to fulfill a thought or complete simple task due to having two children is showcased here in this blog. I have had to get up from writing this blog after every sentence to either console a crying baby, get Carson a piece of candy for going pee pee on the potty, get Carson's ball, wash Carson's ball, get Carson some juice, change Carson's clothes, get Carson a piece of Cake, make the baby a bottle, make Tenaya go outside, let Tenaya in, answer the phone (it was Suzanne. Carson told her that she couldn't come over because the house was messy. It was messy on the floor. It was messy on the table. Thanks Carson for the insight)... and that is just a few things that I have done since I have started writing this blog.
There has also been a bit of adjustment to our lives that has come with having two children. I am one that doesn't sit still for long. I tend to be always on the go. Unfortunately, with two children, the ability and ease of "doing" had been compromised.
On the Fourth of July, my motherhood was put to the test. We were at Bass Lake. The sun was shining. The cocktails were flowing. Friends were laughing. The fireworks were glowing. The lake was calling my name. But were was I? I was in the cabin with my sweet little newborn and my rambunctious 2 year old. There were moments when I was sad that I couldn't be out with our friends to enjoy the lake, sun or cocktails, but I quickly realized that it was a very small sacrafice for the true blessing of my amazing little boys.
Life with Brady has taken some getting used to. He is a darling little addition to our already wonderful family. Aside from his pterodactyl like screams, Brady is sweet as pie.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Let's just take a moment and revisit the last couple of months....
May 22 - Closed escrow on our cabin at Bass Lake
May 25 - Brady was born
May 29 - First weekend at the new cabin at Bass Lake
June 5 - Second weekend at the new cabin at Bass Lake
June 12 - Third weekend at the new cabin at Bass Lake
June 19 - Fourth weekend at the new cabin at Bass Lake
June 26 - Fifth weekend at the new cabin at Bass Lake
(are you seeing a trend?)
July - I spent pretty much the entire month of July at the new cabin at Bass Lake
Yes, as you can tell, I have spent most of the last two months and most of Brady's existence at the cabin at Bass Lake.
It has been a wonderful escape from the day to day life and hot HOT hot weather here in Clovis.
I am really struggling right now. I have so many feelings that I want to express about my life right now and having a hard time putting them into words.
Bass Lake is amazing!! YES
Being a mother to two little boys is a lot of work!! YES
I love Suzanne!! YES
I am excited for the Grand Opening of 9M!! YES
Steve is working his tail off trying to make ends meet!! YES
I am a bit overwhelmed at times lately!! YES!!
I am looking forward to a weekend wine tasting in Calistoga!! YES
Still wondering how to put my feelings into words right now!! YES
Thinking this is a really lame blog post!! YES
I am exhausted and need to go to bed!! YES
Promise to post a better blog soon with pictures!! YES